OK, this might be hard, I know. How can you look at epilepsy, the condition that takes away your independence and strength, and look at it positively? Trust me there have been many days where I have hated what’s been happening to me and felt weak. I’m sure you have felt the same, its natural.
One time, I had been feeling down for days and it dawned on me that I could dwell on my sorrows for as long as I wanted – it’s not going to change my situation, my epilepsy was now a part of me and I could either keep fighting and be fearful of it, or I could accept it and embrace it. And if it happens, it happens. I just have to remember it’s not my fault.
I questioned the reasoning of how this ended up in my life, ‘why me’ – but it’s not going alter anything. I quickly opened my eyes to the world around me, yes I my condition is nasty and I can’t do some of the things my friends do. But compared to so many other people in the world I am extremely lucky.
I noticed how much my family, and friends loved and cared for me. They don’t always show it in a mushy way, but they are they by my side when I need them.
Many philosophers and religions believe that we are here in life to learn lessons. I then thought that maybe having epilepsy as part of my life is something that I need to learn from and be comfortable with.
Epilepsy can be a worrying and frightening experience for many people. I discovered that looking at my epilepsy in more of a positive light, helped remove a huge amount of anxiety for me.
However you currently feel about epilepsy, I hope everyone with epilepsy will be able to be positive and free from anxiety.